Thursday, September 10, 2009

Still small Voice

I'm beginning to not believe in the word "coincidence" these days. Rather I am thinking there is a reason for everything because God works things out in such neat ways that I am in awe.
We recently moved and I had put all of my study books into storage because at the time I could of cared less about reading them/staying on top of them. I've been wanting to get them out for the last week but not sure where they are at in the shed and we are living on a tight budget these days so I didn't/wasn't able to go buy a new one quite yet. I went to a friends house this morning and noticed she had an our daily bread sitting out and I asked her if I could borrow it. Not telling her anymore of the story she got up and went and brought me three different study books for women. Something small, but God provided. I get home and finally was able to have some quiet time after getting Kyler off to the bus and I opened the book and it is panned out by dates. I felt compelled to go ahead and flip to today's date as opposed to starting at the beginning of the book. It was refreshing when I began reading about promptings and still small voices because I am at the beginning of my journey and have been hearing these convictions the past week and I know they weren't of me. I was reminded in this lesson that the Holy Spirit brings promptings to our mind at all different times and the more we listen to them the more we will be quick to hear and obey them. Even if they are as small as, "go say hi to that person sitting alone" or, "say a prayer right now for so and so" I've never spent time in prayer the way I should but slowly I am being prompted to do so. I get to a point though where I feel I might be too overbearing with my words and may turn some people away or they may think I am trying to be better then them. This is not what I am intending or trying to do. I am simply taking an old dirty worn out pair of shoes off and replacing them with a brand new pair and relearning how to tie the laces on them. If listening and obeying (even if it seems odd) brings me a blessing and a peace then the worries and fears of what people will think of me will be removed.
I was just telling my husband yesterday that we need to start praying for what God has for us in the future, where he wants us to pick for our place to move to, and pretty much pray about any big/little decisions in life and although I hear the words coming out of my mouth I think he and I both are still having a hard time believing I am saying this stuff and actually following through with it. It gives me such joy though to have a husband who will sit and pray with me and do a devotional as well. I will admit I was embarrassed at first to share any of this with him but our marriage has been through so much that we are at a point where we can only go forward because if we go back we will be in a muck of mess that we do not want to be in. I have so many red flags that go up now regarding different things/lessons I have learned over the past year. I feel as if Satan is going to try to throw more obstacles in my way because of my past weakness/failure to make right choices. All I can do is purpose to set out my day to listen to the Holy Spirits' voice and if I do this who can be against me?????
I John 2:27 states, "But the anointing which ye have received of God abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you; but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth.".
I am still Erica just with less baggage now! It's as if being on earth is a vacation and I am living out of suitcases and won't be completely free of them until we get to Heaven someday and can lay them at His feet!

2 comments:

  1. Satan will through darts at you. Sometimes even huge flaming arrows, but just know that God has already defeated him. And that God will give you the strength to overcome your temptations.

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